Unpleasant / Pleasant
(Day Four)
Today was a rough day. There was no particular reason for it to be a rough day, and in the grand calendar of my life, today will probably not even warrant remembering. But it was a rough day. All I want to do now is zone out with some TV or maybe shut my eyes and just go to sleep, but here I am.
I can't even really think of anything to write about. I just wrote a paragraph about my mom's friend, Debbie, who sent me a late wedding present over a year ago. I never wrote her a thank you card, and I feel really bad about it. I deleted this paragraph because I got to the end of it and realized all I really had to say about Debbie was that I never wrote her a thank you card, and I feel really bad about it.
Michael is playing video games right now. We've fallen into a probably-not-very-healthy pattern this winter where we come home, eat dinner, talk a bit, and then retreat into our separate zones of either work, the computer, or TV/reading/video games. We don't even watch TV shows or movies together anymore -- a few nights ago he was watching The Blacklist on his laptop and I was watching Scandal on mine. We're right next to each other, but the evening passes away in individual quiet and then it's time for bed. Is this married life? Possibly. But we probably should do more things together or at least not let ourselves work so much at night. It'll be better when it's nice out and we can go on walks or do something that makes it feel like it's not nighttime at 7pm.
Of course, if I want to write every night, I have to be on the computer.
Let's make a list.
Things That Are Unpleasant
Things That Are Pleasant
That's all I can muster up tonight, people. I gotta go to bed. Tomorrow's going to be a rough day, too.
Today was a rough day. There was no particular reason for it to be a rough day, and in the grand calendar of my life, today will probably not even warrant remembering. But it was a rough day. All I want to do now is zone out with some TV or maybe shut my eyes and just go to sleep, but here I am.
I can't even really think of anything to write about. I just wrote a paragraph about my mom's friend, Debbie, who sent me a late wedding present over a year ago. I never wrote her a thank you card, and I feel really bad about it. I deleted this paragraph because I got to the end of it and realized all I really had to say about Debbie was that I never wrote her a thank you card, and I feel really bad about it.
Michael is playing video games right now. We've fallen into a probably-not-very-healthy pattern this winter where we come home, eat dinner, talk a bit, and then retreat into our separate zones of either work, the computer, or TV/reading/video games. We don't even watch TV shows or movies together anymore -- a few nights ago he was watching The Blacklist on his laptop and I was watching Scandal on mine. We're right next to each other, but the evening passes away in individual quiet and then it's time for bed. Is this married life? Possibly. But we probably should do more things together or at least not let ourselves work so much at night. It'll be better when it's nice out and we can go on walks or do something that makes it feel like it's not nighttime at 7pm.
Of course, if I want to write every night, I have to be on the computer.
Let's make a list.
Things That Are Unpleasant
- The smell of dying flowers
- When you're wearing boots and your sock starts to fall down your foot, so it's lumped up towards the ball of your foot and your heel is bare.
- Having to tell somebody something you know they don't want to hear.
- Showers in winter when the tile is really cold and you can feel a draft coming over the shower glass to poke you in the small of your back.
- Ladybugs that are really Asian Lady Beetles that spy on you in the bathroom
- Small talk with people you don't like.
- Forcing yourself to write
- Forcing yourself to exercise
- Being hungry and having no food (or good food) in the foreseeable future
- Sushi
Things That Are Pleasant
- Holding a sleeping puppy
- Holding a sleeping baby
- The first bite of a really good dessert.
- Writing, after you get started and get over the "I don't want to do anything" feeling
- The feeling after you've exercised and you don't have to do it again for awhile
- Waking up on a Saturday to realize you don't have to get out of bed if you don't want to
- Reading something or hearing something that makes you realize other people feel the same way you do, when you thought maybe you were a weirdo
- A comfy bed when you're really, really, really tired
- When a friend does something out of the blue just because they love you
- Chocolate chip cookies
That's all I can muster up tonight, people. I gotta go to bed. Tomorrow's going to be a rough day, too.