COOKIE. COOKIE. COOKIE. COOKIE.
Sometimes when you're on a diet and you've been really good all week, you get to a point where you're forced to shove three cookies in your face in a span of two minutes. This is no ordinary food craving – this is an uncontrollable compulsion you feel leaching into your fingers, your tongue, the roof of your mouth. COOKIE. COOKIE. COOKIE. COOKIE. There's nothing you can do about it – just gotta give in.
Or maybe it's just me.
I did read an article once that was about willpower – studies show that willpower really is finite, and if you resist something earlier in the day, you're less likely to be able to resist sometime else later. You only have so much willpower to go around. When I'm really watching what I eat, my entire world revolves around deprivation, so sometimes that willpower just snaps. The good thing is that now instead of running with that feeling for an entire evening, I can usually keep it to the two minute cookie feast and then I move on.
April's almost over, and with it my 500 words a day challenge. I did okay, but I'm not sure I got much out of it. I feel like I keep pushing against an invisible wall in front of me, but nothing's giving. The only solution is to keep going and try new things, I guess. I feel like most of my problem right now is mental – I'm psyching myself out.
For May I'd like to go back to doing a blog post every day – that seemed to work well last year, and with my letter challenge finished, as well, it will fill the need of writing for an audience. As far as the 500 words, I think I'd like to switch that to the goal of having a short story written by the time we leave for our NY trip on May 13th. We'll reevaluate after that. When it comes down to it, I think I really just need to suck it up and do It. All of It. Everything.
In other news, I've been weeding and mulching like a beast. We have way too many flower beds at our house. Tomorrow I'm installing my raised bed garden, though I don't think I can move my little baby seedings outside yet – it's too cold. Maybe next week. And one of my best friends is coming to visit next weekend, so it's time to scrape off the layer of dirt and clutter that's accumulated throughout the house. Busy, busy. One bright spot is that Olive & Clyde is having its best month yet, which means lots of orders to fill but also lots of excited feelings when I see orders come across on my phone.
I'm not gonna lie, April was a bit of a rough month for me. I kept really busy with consulting, writing, and Olive & Clyde, but it just feels like I'm not getting as much done as I want to, and I'm not moving forward fast enough. It's easy to feel that feeling and let it paralyze you – too many things to do, too many steps to take to get you where you want to be. I knew this was not going to be easy, doing my own thing, but knowing it and feeling it are two different things. I'm going to keep my head down and keep going – and I'm going to make a lot of lists, and then I'm going to check things off those lists. PRODUCTIVITY!
Or maybe it's just me.
I did read an article once that was about willpower – studies show that willpower really is finite, and if you resist something earlier in the day, you're less likely to be able to resist sometime else later. You only have so much willpower to go around. When I'm really watching what I eat, my entire world revolves around deprivation, so sometimes that willpower just snaps. The good thing is that now instead of running with that feeling for an entire evening, I can usually keep it to the two minute cookie feast and then I move on.
April's almost over, and with it my 500 words a day challenge. I did okay, but I'm not sure I got much out of it. I feel like I keep pushing against an invisible wall in front of me, but nothing's giving. The only solution is to keep going and try new things, I guess. I feel like most of my problem right now is mental – I'm psyching myself out.
For May I'd like to go back to doing a blog post every day – that seemed to work well last year, and with my letter challenge finished, as well, it will fill the need of writing for an audience. As far as the 500 words, I think I'd like to switch that to the goal of having a short story written by the time we leave for our NY trip on May 13th. We'll reevaluate after that. When it comes down to it, I think I really just need to suck it up and do It. All of It. Everything.
In other news, I've been weeding and mulching like a beast. We have way too many flower beds at our house. Tomorrow I'm installing my raised bed garden, though I don't think I can move my little baby seedings outside yet – it's too cold. Maybe next week. And one of my best friends is coming to visit next weekend, so it's time to scrape off the layer of dirt and clutter that's accumulated throughout the house. Busy, busy. One bright spot is that Olive & Clyde is having its best month yet, which means lots of orders to fill but also lots of excited feelings when I see orders come across on my phone.
I'm not gonna lie, April was a bit of a rough month for me. I kept really busy with consulting, writing, and Olive & Clyde, but it just feels like I'm not getting as much done as I want to, and I'm not moving forward fast enough. It's easy to feel that feeling and let it paralyze you – too many things to do, too many steps to take to get you where you want to be. I knew this was not going to be easy, doing my own thing, but knowing it and feeling it are two different things. I'm going to keep my head down and keep going – and I'm going to make a lot of lists, and then I'm going to check things off those lists. PRODUCTIVITY!